Oh my gosh! I am sorry I haven’t blogged for so long!
I have been down a big, dark, deep and seemingly endless black hole. I am not sure if it was the diabetes burnout black hole or just a generalised life burnout black hole. I failed to read the signs on the way down but it ended with a thump and a bewildered daze (picture stars swirling around my head) and teary look around my ‘cave’.
I don’t think that it was the diabetes burnout hole because I have been there before and it seemed different. It was definitely linked together in the same cave system but the walls of this cave where taller and wider.
Life in general has been pretty full on. It hasn’t been that I have locked myself in the house or that I have been filled with despair over life itself but it’s been difficult to catch a breath, catch a break or get away from it all. In a way though, I only have myself to blame.
At least I remembered to grab my toolkit before falling down the hole and as I sat there I pulled out each tool one at a time. I pulled out many ladders that would get me out of the hole and tried to work out the most effective method. I pulled out hammers and chisels and toiled over the notion of digging my way out. Ropes and even explosives were examined and I tried to intellectually and logically analysis and create a solution. I walked around and examined the cave, deeper and deeper to try to workout exactly what hole that I was in. I focused on my positive thinking and cognitive thinking.
But all of these efforts did not get me out of the hole. On occasion my head may have peeped out of the hole momentarily but that was basically the furthermost that I got.
Until now….. I am sitting on the edge of the hole, tired, muscles achy and slightly thirsty from my efforts but I’m out. My brain didn’t get me here. I am proud of my collection of tools that I have collected over the years but really, tools are useless unless you use them to do something. Knowing where you are or why you are there is great! But not if it takes forever to figure it out.
Positive thinking is great for motivation to get the ball rolling but it needs to lead to positive DOING. It may start with a thought but it needs to end with an action.
